“When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?”

I’m constantly in awe of creation and that awe is always growing. A couple days ago a group of us hiked up one of the mountains that we can see from our house. It wasn’t the easiest hike, but the view from the top was gorgeous on all sides. And looking back on pictures I was thinking, God had complete control over creating the earth as our temporary home. He could have done anything. And He chose to make it absolutely beautiful. Every city, every state, every country looks different and is unique in its nature, its architecture, its scenery, and its people. And that’s how God created it with his power. He’s so good to give us a beautiful earth to explore while we’re here. As complicated as it sadly is to travel, I feel like it needs to be done. I’ve lived in Spokane my whole life with very little travel aside from Guatemala for a few months. Spokane has its own beauty like anywhere else but seeing new places and new aspects of Gods creation I could say has changed my life. It grows my awe of God immensely getting to look out and think ‘wow. This is God. God is so beautiful.’ 

And also think about Psalm 8:3-4. We can look out into the world and think about creation but we need to remember that WE are also God’s creation. And He cares for us more than the birds, the mountains, the sunsets that He paints. The things we look at and take pictures of and show each other and praise God for. We watch a sunset and give glory to God for that and then go home, look in the mirror, and hate ourselves. There’s a balance that needs to be found that doesn’t go up to self righteousness but doesn’t go down to self hate. We are vessels for God to fulfill His purpose through. We can’t preach to others about how God created them out of love and then tear ourselves down saying we aren’t good enough.

And this is something I struggle with constantly. Believing that my self deprecating thoughts are truthful and that everyone else sees it too. A battle needs to be had in my head constantly pushing out thoughts of self hate, overthinking, and insecurity. God made me. Think about it. God looked at Albania, considered the beautiful mountains that it was going to have, molded them into shape, and set them there. Then looked at each person, thought about their face, their personality, their beauty, and made it happen how HE wanted. When we tear ourselves down it hurts our Father who gave thought into creating us.

This is something I’ve been working on and wanted to share to maybe help someone else too. And this isn’t to get to a place of thinking highly of myself, but to stop unnecessarily ruining days with lies in my head telling me I’m not good enough.

And get outside. See the earth God has made for us.